“We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we’re curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.” – Walt Disney
These last few days here in Tucson, I’ve thought a lot about the past year. A lot can happen in that time period, a lot of decisions and choices, including picking up and moving across country, like I did. With no sense of what I was getting myself into, no friends or connections other than my roommate, I had an immense curiosity and excitement to take on something new and completely different in my life. When I first decided to move, I was at a point in my life where I felt caged in, like there were all these things I wanted to do and see, but I was stuck, held back from it all, or so I thought. So, when one of my sorority sisters and college roommates put it out there that she needed a roommate in Tucson, in my spontaneous nature, I did it, without hesitation, and ventured into one of the hardest years in my life. From an amazing career experience to life’s funny moments (and I mean “funny” with all sarcasm); good and bad, it was all tough! It was a year of self discoveries, but also one filled with constant battles with personal demons, and my own worst enemy..myself. I lost a sense of my personal life here, feeling more alone than ever, which caused several areas in my life to become lackluster, including my blog. I’ve been beating myself about this decision to move back home, mostly because I feel this tremendous pressure that I don’t have a job lined up, but when I’m reminded by all the people that truly love and support me. They are my motivation, the reason I am confident in who I am, my skills, and creativity, and positive outlook on life. They could care less I don’t have a job, they just want me near, to see my smile and be happy, and encourage me and I venture on my own. Because although I may not seem it, I am extremely passionate in The Dreamery. I have a vision to transform The Dreamery into a Event Styling and Speciality Desserts, and it’s becoming a reality by moving back home. (Stay tuned for future events I’m lining up…)
If I could take a lesson from this year, aside from making me a much emotionally and mentally stronger woman, is that it’s not about where you are in the world that makes it a home, it’s the people that love and support you through all life’s obstacles that makes you feel like home. And altough, I’m not saying my return to New Jersey is permanent, well because it’s not I’ve got plenty of venturing to do, I know it’s what I need to do in my life at the moment.